Sunday, May 6, 2012

I feel like I should understand...


We are almost best-friends... I feel like I should be OK with this and should understand... but I don't. I know that times get hard and nothing ever goes exactly how you want it, but I just can't stop thinking about it. I love you; I love you both as a friend and more... I told you, but you just weren't ready. But now you say you are. The problem you ask? O yes, that's right you're ready... just to be with someone else. I am perfect to you, we share interests, we are right. But you just don't see it. You thought it would mess with our friendship... but I am slowly peeling myself apart because I'm letting you get away. I know you deserve it. You deserve the best, you deserve love and happiness... I just wish it were with me... I know that I could give you everything, and more. I may never get that chance and that hurts the worst knowing that I could give you so much love and happiness, but that I have to keep it to myself. I don't quite know if you know that I'm in love with you but geeze I barely knew. But now I do know... and I also know that I can't do this much longer. I'm watching the person I love fall for someone else, and there is nothing I can do about it. I'm jealous and recklessly falling apart. But I don't tell you because I know your decision and I wan't you... NO I need you to be happy.... and right now...you are.

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